Olivia's World

I have so much that I want to do with my life, but I can't.
I'm so independent.. I have the mind-frame of an INDEPENDENT person, yet I depend on my momma.I get so frustrated when I cant make her happy.

I feel like, the world is on my shoulders. Some days, I think to myself that if I was dead that It'd be better that way.. so I would be better. but that's selfish, you know what about the people that really care about me. You know, what about the people that need me, like my mom, my little brother.

This year, after taking a year off from the world, I finally got off my ass & enrolled in school, and I finished my first semester, lost an aunt.. to a stroke, [She's still ALIVE, she's in a vegetative state] .

she actually named me Olivia, she was the main person jumping on my ass to make me do better. and I finally got up and did it. but she cant enjoy it.

uhm, This Christmas, I went to see her, I told her about my grades & you know.. it gets over whelming at times.

I'm trying. I can only do so much.

but I will NEVER EVER give up... that's what the haters, & negative people want.