Right Now.

Right now..

I'm not sure who I am..
Can you tell me who I am?
I feel like a lost person.. in the dark, reaching for the light which appears to be
only in grasp. I feel empty. I feel bare inside. I feel like no one understands me.

I shake my head now. because this is just one of those days. Where I feel as though
the world has turned its back on me. One of those days where the blade is cutting at
my wrist over & over again... only to show no tearing of the skin.. nor a spot of blood.

*chuckles* People might say, Oh you're crazy, but you have no idea what goes on in my head
or.. do you? I can tell you, or ... I could lie && say that I'm fine, No worries.

But deep inside, I'm much more than you anticipate. Sometimes, I think I am the spawn of Satan.
I have very very hateful thoughts. I can't stop them. they are just there. Although, on the other shoulder sits
the ANGELIC version of I. The part of me that cares, the part of me that has a heart.

Some days, I don't know which one comes alive. Other days I can pick & choose.

I'm not crazy, Its just YOU don't understand me.
... && the real questions is WILL YOU EVER understand me?


--Speak up or be forgotten ~ ONJ