I'm so sorry!! I never even meant for it to happen. I wouldn't take back everything that has happened I just wish that I would have went about it the right way rather than the wrong way.
I can't say how sorry I am, and I can't take back the pain, and the embarrassment that I caused but I'm so so sorry, I wish that I could take the lies and the hurt away. I want to be that person that YOU envision me being... but I cant. I'm just me, the same goofball, mean girl, sometimes random, often said to be "Complex" girl that you grew attached to. If you're looking for something other than that... I'm SORRY. not going to happen. I just wish that it turned out the way YOU wanted rather than the way IT did. In life we all make mistakes, but Me, I make my share of mistakes and I beat myself up over them. You will remain on my mind from time to time, like you do now. It'll never be the same, You don't see me for ME. You see me for what you SEE and what you ONLY see not what you KNOW about me also.
Often I think that if, I were the person you wanted me to be, then it'd be okay... It'd be fine. but its not. It would've been a LIE. I'm not asking for a miracle. I know that I'll probably never speak to you on the level that we were on. but I see that it'd be better if I moved on and forgot all about you. I can't though. I became emotionally involved... and I know that you're hurting... but its killing me.
I die today, tomorrow or the next day. I just want for all the pain, anger, irritation, and hatred for me... to cease to exist and joy be brought into your life.
Right now, this doesn't make sense but I... wrote this for a reason. and ONLY the people who were involved with this incident, know what I'm talking about I'm done I'm finished all I have to say is....
I'm utterly and deeply sorry for not being what you wanted.
I'm sorry that I'm not perfect.
I'm sorry I'm not what you expected.
I'm sorry I can't take back anything that caused you pain.
They say everything happens for a reason and...
Karma will come back to get me...
I'm totally aware and prepared for the consequences...
but I will overcome this feeling of ---
not meeting your standards... and not being good enough for you...
I can only be me... like it or not I can only be me.
I'm just a girl trying to make everybody happen, but in the end I ended up
being a failure to everybody and being TRUE to myself and that's good enough
for me. =)
I can't say how sorry I am, and I can't take back the pain, and the embarrassment that I caused but I'm so so sorry, I wish that I could take the lies and the hurt away. I want to be that person that YOU envision me being... but I cant. I'm just me, the same goofball, mean girl, sometimes random, often said to be "Complex" girl that you grew attached to. If you're looking for something other than that... I'm SORRY. not going to happen. I just wish that it turned out the way YOU wanted rather than the way IT did. In life we all make mistakes, but Me, I make my share of mistakes and I beat myself up over them. You will remain on my mind from time to time, like you do now. It'll never be the same, You don't see me for ME. You see me for what you SEE and what you ONLY see not what you KNOW about me also.
Often I think that if, I were the person you wanted me to be, then it'd be okay... It'd be fine. but its not. It would've been a LIE. I'm not asking for a miracle. I know that I'll probably never speak to you on the level that we were on. but I see that it'd be better if I moved on and forgot all about you. I can't though. I became emotionally involved... and I know that you're hurting... but its killing me.
I die today, tomorrow or the next day. I just want for all the pain, anger, irritation, and hatred for me... to cease to exist and joy be brought into your life.
Right now, this doesn't make sense but I... wrote this for a reason. and ONLY the people who were involved with this incident, know what I'm talking about I'm done I'm finished all I have to say is....
I'm utterly and deeply sorry for not being what you wanted.
I'm sorry that I'm not perfect.
I'm sorry I'm not what you expected.
I'm sorry I can't take back anything that caused you pain.
They say everything happens for a reason and...
Karma will come back to get me...
I'm totally aware and prepared for the consequences...
but I will overcome this feeling of ---
not meeting your standards... and not being good enough for you...
I can only be me... like it or not I can only be me.
I'm just a girl trying to make everybody happen, but in the end I ended up
being a failure to everybody and being TRUE to myself and that's good enough
for me. =)
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