I'm considerate of other people's feelings, hardbody but I'm tired.

I get tired of being there for you && when I need you... you're not there.

There is so many things wrong with this picture.

I don't say anything.. I just let it ride.

You know sometimes I wonder how we got this far.

What were we holding on to?

Its like I'm looking back down the road and all I see is bullshit. PURE bullshit.

you say soooo many things to make me believe you. but in the end it all boils down to you lying.

I honestly can't handle this. I would've trusted you with my life. but, I dont think I can do that.

I'm not a little kid anymore. You can't just say things && not expect me to ... I dont even care anymore dude.

just..

I'm just tired.. really I am. && you... KNOW who you are.

I 've never really done anything for me; like seriously I haven't.

I've always done things because they HAD to be done, or someone else wanted that FOR ME!

I'm kinda lost right now. I've always been the one.. who has a plan.
Rarely do I ever go with the flow. I'm more of a "I WILL DO THIS" and it be done.

I've never really made ANY choices for myself; I've always let my parents or somebody else decide for me.

but, I feel like I'm at a split in the road. you know, asking myself; "Where Do I Go From Here."
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[I'm posted up.. thinking. ]

we are born we LEARN half of our lives & work until.. we die eventually.

No one really LIVESSSS it to the fullest because we're too busy with grade school & college and work. [unlike the ppl born INTO money]

but the world is ruled by money; it makes it go round. if you aint got money.. then.. YOU AINT NOBODY.

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I've been GROWN; but I aint been acting like it.

I'm shy.. like REALLY shy. I dont DO things because I'm afraid I'll mess up. I'm a people pleaser & IT HAS TO STOP!

I'm always telling myself "Oh you have to do this because SO & SO said so..."

you know.. but my momma told me "THIS IS YOUR LIFE; DO RIGHT BY IT"

I'm not sure where I go from here.. but I know its NOWHERE near where I am now.

I actually somewhat care, what people think but I constantly remind myself that THEY AINT BENEFICIAL so therefore THEY DONT MATTER!

Each day is a blessing.. and.. I'm not taking it for granted.