-youmademethisway.`

Technically, I'm grown. *nods*

But, I'm not ready for the world.... or am I ?

I can't fathom being without my mother in my life.
I love her beyond life itself. She's babied me; my whole life.

Sometimes, I look at her and I feel like I've totally let her down.
I want to be something... I want to be someone that she's proud of.

I mean... I'm not doing anything with my life as of now.

But, I'm trying.. and that's .. good enough for me.

If people knew the way I see things.. the way I think.. they'd most likely understand me.

-acloserlook.`?

Some days are better than others.

Like today, I woke up feeling like I was all alone.

I'm not sure how this thing called life even works.
In my mind, I'd love to do alot of things.. but, when push comes to shove; I make my first move then, its like God pushes me back 5 steps. Its hard... and sometimes, I get these attitudes as to where I say "Fuck You, I Dont Need You... You're No Help, You Can Leave Me Alone" .

I'm just frustrated, and I blame everyone.. I blame my mother, my friends.. I blame everyone..

Except.......... Me.